I am overflowing with gratitude today. I make a daily effort to recognize my blessings and take a moment to be thankful, but I will be honest; it has been a little harder the past week. It is easy to say out loud, “I’m so lucky that I am able to stay home with my son everyday!” And I do think that, I really do. But on days when I’m stuck in a 700 square foot apartment with a newly walking toddler who’s favorite game is pulling my hair or throwing a tantrum, it doesn’t feel so lucky. The past few days have been filled with cell phones and remotes thrown in the dog water, a broken video camera, very short naps, lots of screaming and brief stints in 100 degree heat.
Being cooped up and tired turns me into a not-so-great version of myself. Luckily I do have the ability to never take out my frustration on my Dylan. I guess I’m a workaholic at heart even when it comes to being a professional mom – I take my job to make my son laugh very seriously.
Unluckily for my hubby, I’m less great at hiding that frustration from him and he gets the brunt of my nastiness. Sometimes he handles it okay and other times he is a rock star! Two nights ago he did everything he could to pamper me and even took the monitor that night to ensure a good night sleep. Then last night we both had a mellow night on our laptops working. It is amazing how a little quiet time (read: no need to entertain baby or husband) can totally rejuvenate me. I got some thoughts on paper about direction for a new project, sent some business emails, and read an inspirational book.
Today I feel like a new woman! Dylan I had such a fun morning and then he slept for two hours! This is a rare and beautiful thing for him. It is like he felt my newfound peace and he wanted in on it too. Now, he is hanging with his aunt Marcia for a bit while I study. Another miracle, I even found 5 minutes to write this post!